haha....recently juz too much things clogging my head again.....2day i witness myself my mother's fatigue look again!!!! tis few days, she is completely restless taking care of my grandma. im trying my best on helping her on the housework part(except cooking la of course, im a complete idiot when comes to cooking). And yet she still feel tired and 2day i nid to hold her to get a chair in a shopping center in order for her 2 get some rest......geeezz.....i don like tis scene at all, it kinda make me hate those 2 old folks. ya i noe wat u all will thk, the 2 folks still my grandparents and i notice that. 2day i confess to my mum that i hate those 2 old folks very much, my mum answer me she knew it all along but she get things wrong on the reason i hate them. my mum thought that i hate them is bcoz they din treat me well when i was a child, thats true la but is juz not enough 4 me 2 hate them. i told my mum that they making my mum miserable is the reason y i hate them so damn much. is been 5 yrs i thk since my mum having the disease that suppose to forbidden her from doing any stressful. instead, she been taking care of that 2 old junks......making her health a day worser than another.....i will hav the ' wana cry tendency' again when everytime i thought abt tis matter. everytime i complain to my father that tis job is just too much 4 my mum.....my mum will always interrupt our conversation and say 'it's ok, im fine and i still can manage to do it.' the scene i witness 2day i thk i will keep happen again and again, juz like deja vu. sometimes i juz hope that...................................and all will b over.
all i can do is help her as much as i could.........haiz, my father is not in a good shape too. he hurts his back when he try to carry my grandma into the car. now he is been taking diff kind of pain-killer, seem like none of it is working well..........FML
from : cockroach that witnessing that cruel of reality
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