Am i wrong?

Lol, juz dono y? i turn down 1 of my coursemate when he ask me a question i hav 50 % on it i can answer. But instead i turn him down by giving some lame excuses that my lab report havnt finish yet.

Its weird man, is juz a natural instinct 2 give out that excuse. He is the guy that coz me 1 yr of misery........During my study here, i learned somthing, or rather said i found out that i cant treat everyone nice. University is juz so not like primary or secondary school......is totally 2 different world. Now, i usually will choose myself, who shld i hang out with, who is worth of helping he/her up, who 2 make fun and telling joke with. Once i heard a quote states that 'if u cant change them, blend with them'.......my point of view is 'if u cant change them, get away from them'. U wan 2 say me 记仇o wat so ever, i juz don wan 2 do it.

But strangely, after turning he down, i felt a sense of guilt inside me. I seldom felt guilt though. I will onli felt that way when i miss out somthing or som1. But the guy is definitely the 1 i wana miss out. So, i juz don get myself. Mayb God wan me 2 help him, hmm then God finds the wrong person perhaps.......go find som1 else, although God's teaching is ' love ur neighbour and ur enemy', but sry God 'mission failed' tis time.

Guess is still a long way 2 b 'holy' huh? actually i din plan it also. Recently i found out i been tagged by my coursemates that im a religous kind of guy.......i involve in the fellowship too much, actually when i thk bak, i been involving in it when i 1st step in 2 tis uni. My frens all wont call me out coz they noe i will b bz of my fellowship task or sunday going 2 church. So i basically miss out those gathering with all my coursemate bcoz of that. And 1 thing that really pissed me off is, a fren from my course is chatting wit me on9 on fb, we discussing abt when the rain will stop, he answer me 'pray harder then the rain will stop'. By the time, in my head onli a word 'bastard'. Is more like a teaser than a normal conversation sentence lo........FML

Anyway, im juz believing wat i believed. I don mind of giving tagged or boycott in certain level. So i thk i will juz live my wit 1 ear close and 1 eye close lo. Life would b much more better that way........finally, cant wait 4 cny, wan 2 c my mum, eat cny biscuits and ply cards......haha without the bananas of course!!!!haha!!!!!