The freaking feel of open school

The freaking and uneasy feeling comes every time when the school opening is around the corner. I started to got tis feeling during my primary school days. I tend to hav c all the holiday's homework undone coz i usually don open books when my holiday mood is officially 'ON'. tis holiday is juz make no different coz i had a lot of things plan 2 do was not successfully complete or i can say, din putting effort of doing it. haha, i din look through the book i shld learn for fyp preparation and some cf program preparation too. The whole holiday is like working, working and working.....nonstop, and im juz starting my holiday juz few days nia. And i had to go bak the place so called 'hell' or UTHM aka universiti tenggelam habis malaysia.

BEsides those academic related muz do list, b4 the holiday i planned to go somewhere to ply de like Penang. but i really have no idea my whole holiday will end up like tis. b4 tis, the longest part time working period i gone through was juz 1 month nia due to my laziness. haha. but surely i have more income, but it turns out i earn more, spend more in the same time also. The income i gain frm it seems to be juz enough to buy the things i wan and daily expenses during the holiday.

Really felt tis holiday, plying part is juz not so enough.

haha, suddenly having a rush of finding a gf coz many of my frens call me to find 1. but sadly the rush juz remain for a few hours nia......not long. many ppl i cant get girl is my self confident problem, i had to admit im not quite confident in front of girls la but the main problem is not that. Is more like a ghost frm the past bugging me. Don ask me wat? i think most of my fren noe it. but anyway, is not my concern now for tis kind of problem.

There is another priority i mention is my future. I started to had tis feeling coz now my both parents are not working and that means my family now basically have no source of income. Ther is an urgent nid of me to find a job to earn some money for the family. Haiz, but i still have 1 yr of study left leh. So, i decided to study sibe hard for tis remaining year to 'pia' my cpa. In order to hav a nicer job in the future. Those girls crap i can put aside temporary so that it wont blocking me to achieve my goals. So, i pray to God don let me encounter any girl that will make my heart beat like crazy, pls, thank you and u r welcome. haha.

Enough of my trash talk, i also dono y i got the mood to share it but hey mayb is due to the open school syndrome i had.......so peace out guys and had a nice day ahead.