pre-chinese new year

haha......is chinese new year soon........cant wait for the holiday. 2 more weeks......yahoo!!! there is so much on my 'to do list', i wan to dye my hair, buy some new clothes or sneakers, go for a movie, sing k, and more and more. But sadly for those high level spending like dying my hair and buying clothes is out of my range that i could afford, coz i officially broke........haha, congratulation. nvr in my life i think i will broke living in uthm (universiti tenggelam habis malaysia), guess im sinking with it huh?

and the question arise, why dont i go had a part time job? 1st, i don have the time, after my final is cny and after cny i had to go bak to do my fyp. 2nd, if my parents finds out im working outside, they will sure noe im lack of money, and for sure they will find a way to give me money whether i agrees or not. FYI, my parents r not working. i don feel like to ask money frm my parents since my father retired, im fully depend on my ptptn. right b4 the sem starts, i do some simple calculation, i shld b able to gone through tis sem with the money i had left but sadly shits juz come and i end up using more money that i expected........(dono la, now i rather go eat alone also don wan to go eat with that guy who make my life miserable). i dono since i become a person like tat, felt like i started to wonder whether i really noe myself well enough. perhaps im tire of every morning wakes up thinking where to eat and how to spend in order to use less than rm10 ringgit perday........trust me is kinda fuck up.......right im actually eating 1 or 2 meal per day......not more than 2........if got exam mayb 3, im now banning all those high spending restaurant like McD and kfc.

im having my thrifty life for almost a month dy........got ppl invite me go movie i rejected them, ppl jio me go McD i say no, ppl call me go ther, do that......if involves money, i will definitely reject them. seems like God help me when 2day i go try chg my bus ticket's date.....the aunty say knot.....then i wont b spending money at kl........but kinda sad coz cant met wit old frens.......all can hope for is next year lo.

i juz realize recently i update my blog quite frequently........izit a good sign or a bad sign. but 1 thing for sure, im stress and i cant juz show it all on my face, it will scares ppl. all i can do is to express through words........lastly, wish everyone a early happy chinese new year.......