Short happy time

Happy time sure goes as like it's flying.......i com bak seremban on thursday and 'pops' suddenly is saturday nite dy. Means that 2mrw i will b heading bak good old 'king of drain'.

Really enjoy tis few days accommodation at my home, i used the word 'accommodation' coz its living for a few days and u nid 2 'chau' after that, so is kinda like a hotel la. Tis few days, i had ate alot of mom's cooking, her cooking is still the best. haha. Dad's gonna had a job next month, is somthing like fetching kids frm school la.....

As usual, i cant do any studies at home......i din open the books i shld study at all.....i juz basically sleep and watch tv. i had a severe flu after i got back here.....the nose is running like crazy......hate that though.

Haha, after coming bak realy felt my mum miss me alot......is bad for me to not coming bak frequently, i don hav a gf or somthing, so shld b no excuse to com bak home......haha. started to crazy again......

ok la,,,,,,enough of the dose of crap of my own.......will stop here, hope 2mrw will be a better day for everyone of us.......

the suffocate feeling.....

Dono y la, juz felt wanted to split some words here. Recently felt suffocate suddenly.......and seems like no1 can help me.

Tis few weeks, im bz with things at cf and my study.......at first i think i can handle it pretty well. but the ugly truth is that i suddenly felt like im starting to crack somehow. The feeling is not good at all, i sense the urgency of some changes made on cf but i juz cant do it. Every1 is like doing their own thing and or i can rather say, they abandone it? ther was no sense of unity at all......between all the cf committee members. Got bf go find bf, wan kao lui go kao lui, bz wit study de, and another headache 1 is he does things all by his own without our notification........juz left a brother who had a same view that something nid 2 b changes. b4 tis i said loud and clear that i will cooperate with the brother to make some changes. but now seems like, the changes havnt been made and im starting to crack. im sick of choosing my study or my religion. balancing the 2 things is the most fxxking hard thing in my life i think, at least for now. when i finish the things at cf (which practically say is a forever unfinish business), then i would had to catch up my studies.

i muz concentrate on my study because im the only son at my family. the family needs me man. i cant afford to extend 1 sem or get delayed my graduation. and in the other hands, doing God's work is also a very important task for me also, i wont c it lightly. so, ther is some controversy going on. 2day, i had a fxxk up day. morning i had a badminton session bcoz a cf's brother suddenly had a test and he cant handle it. then at noon i need to go teach a junior abt coding (1st time teach ppl leh, after 3 yrs i had been in uthm.) that i havnt been looking at it for 1 yr. So, at nite, i nid 2 go out with my lovely housemate farewell dinner la. He is going to be a lecturer at curtin university at sarawak.

Juz dono la, i think got the heart wana to serve the lord more, i tend to get tired more easily........sometimes i really wanted to had a life like others typical university students, like hang out wit boys and girls ar, ply counterstrike together ar, or go travel. without anything related to cf or churches. coz recently seems like im whole life is full of those 'things' onli. recently i seldom calls my mum coz i noe i cant bak home so frequently bcoz of cf and homework.

Next, like i said my housemate is moving out. He is the 1 who is paying the large portion of the rental most of the time coz he os working. after his departure, the rental is really gonna b a big problem. if not mistaken, i nid 2 pay abt rm200 or more per month for the rental if he is gone. tis time i really nid 2 eat grass baru boleh survive lo......

Those problems i faced might been small cases to u all, but for me, is like a hell of a problems. i had a happy go lucky attitude, but when i started to get serious, it seems like it drags me down my power drastically. is like u suddenly using a c70 motor kap to speed up until 100 somthing mph, possible? the combination of those shits, is more than i can handle. im trying hard to b more positive, but i juz cant stop the fatigue inside my mental self. an dilemma is going on, whether is shld continue like tis or juz concentrate on my study, practically i think my parents are more important to me. dono la, the bottom line is i don like choosing, especially all the option given means so damn much to me.

Some bad thoughts also sometimes, if im a more typical university student and din joined cf. will i still b single and kinda not available? haha, dono lo, better go ask God.

enough of thrash talks......gd nite everyone............

Convo fever.......

It just like a convo crazy, because when i opened up my facebook, there will certainly some convocation photos posted on it. Sometimes i will juz open it up to c either bcoz is the photo of my frens or i saw a lenglui inside the photo. haha. neither way, i felt terribly sry for all my frens who r having their convocation that i cant attend and i don have the money to buy them present either, except those who blackmail me la.

tis semester is a big of mess. everything is like pouring down on me. i nid more and more and more time to sort those things out. i still learning to arrange my time more effectively. everytime i planned a thing, must have somthing else com out to spoil it. damn. i nid 2 done my psm, i nid 2 done my assignments, i nid 2 done my serving in cf, i nid 2 do tis and i nid to do that. is like haiz.....y like tis. i cant even find a suitable time for me to go home. yails. felt sry though to my parents. my mum always tell me u no nid 2 com bak so frequent but i noe they certainly want me to com bak once in awhile. im not like living in sabah or somthing.......im going just a bus trip away nia.

really hope i can get the chance to go home more frequently and yea hope that my convocation will have ppl willing to com( im kinda scare that no1 will com for it coz i ffk many ppls convo dy.haha).

so, is time to work out. the weather is nice, im going out to jog for awhile. haha

finally some relieve.....

during the 4 months of holiday, i had done my internship at ON semiconductor but sadly i forgot to register my subject at my faculty. Sound sucks rite? is really sucks trust me......when i go check at the faculty, all those staff asking was 'y u din register? y all ur frens registered?'. For that moment i really dono how 2 answer them. luckily, ther is 1 of the staff ther which i think is quite 'helpful' la. he din scold and tell me wat shld i do to get tis situation fixed. All the thing he told is to get approve letter frm industrial visit supervisor and the industrial training committee as a proof to write a letter to our dear lovely faculty dean........sweat rite? i nvr once step in to the dean office. So i ran here, ran ther so settle up the document needed and took me quite some time to type the letter which is in malay anyway(official letter must all in malay).

but thx God that, tis morning i went to check out the letter status at the dean personal assistant office, and the deputy dean is juz reading it and juz on time i can explain the situation i faced and all those confusion i had causing me not to register the subject. And yeah, he said ok and he will call his PA to settle it for me........when i heard the word spill out frm his mouth.....i fet so damn relieve man, is like im moving frm hell to heaven.

this matter is bugging me since i coming bak to the university. and im so glad that everything was settle. phew!!!

haha.......now im relieve and sleepy so i will juz stop here la.......wish every1 have a good day ahead.......