a tonne of shits.......

recently, i juz dono y. i get mad at somthing so easily and in the process i thk i definitely will piss som1 off with tis kind of behavior. all of these is cause by the shitty things that happens to be happening......my house got broke in, my mom sickness getting worse, my grandfather moving in my house(for many of u, tis may not b a problem but 4 me is definitely a god damn problem), i did superbly bad in my exam and lot lot more.......that juz forking bullshit.

i juz will get mad so easily and starting to smashing and throwing things....the pressure is so high even when im in the exam hall my head suddenly gone blank by looking at the question i should b able to answer. FML, 4 the 1st time, i felt tis scare in d exam hall, coz is juz like forgeting everything.

basically, tis semester is juz a totally disaster 4 me, i hav a few killer lecturer and i cant do well in my final exam also.......but the thing i worried the most is my mom's health and now dad's too. My mom hav a neuro disease that prevent her from heavy workload. but now due to the 'new uninvited guest' in my house, my mom's burden get heavier. is not like the old man force my mom to do somthing, is juz like old folks hav certain obsession in life like every meal nid to hav a bowl of rice(if u don get it nvm, is better than u don), my mom hav to cook for him rice and soup separate from our meal, that was juz.........ya i noe u all might think is not hard to cook a little bit more, my mother was sick and somtimes when she feel tire, we will juz hav maggi or i go' da bao' for her........i can c the tiredness mentally through my mother's eye and that makes me feel 'sibe' uncomfortable.

moreover, i hav a 'new room' thx 2 our guest of 'honour', i cant sleep well also even when im at home......fxxk that. i juz get bak from parit raja a day and i felt very uncomfortable dy. i can c my father health problem getting worse and my parent are arguing more often now( 1day twice, that a new record, normally is like 1 shooting and 1 diam diam go away de, but nw different). This is also mayb due to the things that happen in our family, the 'new hohour guest' and my grandmother will hav to start hemolysis* (i dono was that the rite spelling)........

the story continue to my latest shit that i encounter yesterday. My laptop was malfunction, it planned to fail at tis kind of time (my 'happy'(now not so happy la) 2 month holiday ). all is bcoz i put my laptop on the bed and coz the laptop to overheat. Now my laptop is juz like a HIV or cancer patient waiting 4 his/her turn to meet our father in heaven. The illness of my laptop is known as the black screen of death according to the info i search on the net la. is basically a motherboard problem and u hav no other way to solve it but to call the dell service center. $ ur in fo, my warranty is over and it is fxxking expensive to get it repair........somtimes i juz felt wanted to cry but the tears juz wont com out coz im not the kind of person who likes to cry......

anyhow, shit does happens in everyone's life. the purpose of tis post was juz releasing my anger here b4 i release on others. is still make me feel very uncomfortable with 'new guest',somtimes i juz felt like i wanna to get him out of my house, but sadly i din do it anyway coz i juz not that kind of cruel person, coz he hav no place to live dy bside my house. so, don hate those bad character in those hong kong movie of treating their elder rudely coz ther mayb a rational behind the story and i was experincing it now.

so that 4 now, i apologizes coz i noe i mencarut alot in tis post.....

from : ur emo-ing cockroach which is trying to b a bad person