pre-chinese new year

haha......is chinese new year soon........cant wait for the holiday. 2 more weeks......yahoo!!! there is so much on my 'to do list', i wan to dye my hair, buy some new clothes or sneakers, go for a movie, sing k, and more and more. But sadly for those high level spending like dying my hair and buying clothes is out of my range that i could afford, coz i officially broke........haha, congratulation. nvr in my life i think i will broke living in uthm (universiti tenggelam habis malaysia), guess im sinking with it huh?

and the question arise, why dont i go had a part time job? 1st, i don have the time, after my final is cny and after cny i had to go bak to do my fyp. 2nd, if my parents finds out im working outside, they will sure noe im lack of money, and for sure they will find a way to give me money whether i agrees or not. FYI, my parents r not working. i don feel like to ask money frm my parents since my father retired, im fully depend on my ptptn. right b4 the sem starts, i do some simple calculation, i shld b able to gone through tis sem with the money i had left but sadly shits juz come and i end up using more money that i expected........(dono la, now i rather go eat alone also don wan to go eat with that guy who make my life miserable). i dono since i become a person like tat, felt like i started to wonder whether i really noe myself well enough. perhaps im tire of every morning wakes up thinking where to eat and how to spend in order to use less than rm10 ringgit perday........trust me is kinda fuck up.......right im actually eating 1 or 2 meal per day......not more than 2........if got exam mayb 3, im now banning all those high spending restaurant like McD and kfc.

im having my thrifty life for almost a month dy........got ppl invite me go movie i rejected them, ppl jio me go McD i say no, ppl call me go ther, do that......if involves money, i will definitely reject them. seems like God help me when 2day i go try chg my bus ticket's date.....the aunty say knot.....then i wont b spending money at kl........but kinda sad coz cant met wit old frens.......all can hope for is next year lo.

i juz realize recently i update my blog quite frequently........izit a good sign or a bad sign. but 1 thing for sure, im stress and i cant juz show it all on my face, it will scares ppl. all i can do is to express through words........lastly, wish everyone a early happy chinese new year.......

luck huh?

is been a busy week, but is a hapi week coz my best fren is getting married. but despite of hapiness, i also discover some facts abt myself. During the week, i had did many things that i nvr did b4 in my life. i get drunk by having alcohol more that i had in my whole life so far( i dint usually drink, my parent dont drink, only sometime my uncle will 'yam sheng' with me during cny, thats all). i get to ply snooker, believe it or not, tis is the first time i grab a snooker stick, FML. As usual i ply like a noob, even jessie can ply better than me. sometimes i really think do i had any talents that i can proud of. next, the fun part, i go clubbing leh! nvr in my life really been to a clubbing place that was filled with alot of ppl. And i juz found out that i cant dance or rather moving my body.......haha, i noe is lame.

but no regret la, countdown at pub kinda new and fresh for me. plying snooker like noob also nvm la. sucks at drinking beer also nvm la, im dont have to drink everyday also. after all those new things i try out, i kinda have a conclusion. i sucks in almost everything except sleeping. and 1 more thing that really doesnt make sense is i still had frens who r still willing to let me join them and gila2 with them. i cant find the answer y they willing to let me join them, coz i kinda sucks in everything. if they post status of asking a question b4 new year, i certainly will ask them abt it.

but anyway, for the moment i juz think it as a present or luck that God gave me...... coz for me, i dono wat my life will b without them. Im a nerd kind of person from kindergarden, primary school, secondary school and till now university. i had some minor improvement but basically is the same. there was not a single girls willing to willing to let me join them except those of my best frens.

Talk abt the topic of 'nerd'. i thinking of me, having my glasses on and open my mouth wide, sitting on the chair at the class while listening to the teacher's teaching. I kinda do that too until now when im really really blur. that scene was the me when i was in my primary school. i used to get beaten up by others, juz like wat u see in those movie (the movie is juz over reacted, mine is more moderate, haha). so, i decided that, i will do wat i want frm now on, im a born nerd, my nerdiness is apart of me.......so i will live like a nerd according to my way. bis not bad to b a nerd, the world has to had bad ppl to shows that there is noble ppl. the same goes to nerd, nerds a essential to prove that the 'cool' ppl are actually 'cool'.

its new year, all i hoping is to encounter less trouble or problem, if can had a gf coz my frens will soon getting married 1 by 1 liao......and juz like the song of bruno mars 'today my life begins', i will break tis chain that bind me, happiness will find me......hopefully........haha........hopefully~~~~~~

happy at last

i noe my title is kinda stupid. but who care anyway. last sunday i attended my good fren's wedding dinner, im very happy my fren found a nice guy and gone married. but sometimes it doesnt feel good when ur fren is getting married and u don even hav a gf before, thats kinda sucks.

ok, back to the title. as usual im attending the wedding dinner with my secondary school frens. the whole nite is all abt cam whore. although i not a person who prefers cam whore, but actually i did enjoy cam whoring with them. im enjoying the process is not bcoz i had chance to take pictre with so many leng lui but actually i realise that i laugh for that hard for so damn long since i bak to uni. is like im not really laughing for 2 or 3 months. now i baru notice im so that not happy when im in university. nthg worth laughing abt......fml

anyway, thats a great nite, i enjoy myself, i bet others enjoy themselves too. so here is a photo of us gathered that day......i crossing fingers that the bf of them don come and whack me......haha

feeling bad.....

i really dono wher to start, but anyway, is been a though week, i had 3 test, 1 fyp presentaion....although i finished my last test paper, but somehow i din felt any happier. Felt like im totally fuck up this 2 months, ther is not a day i felt happy abt it.....everyday new shits arise.....juz a summary, my phone broke, im broke due to the bastard, i get killer panel, my tayar 'puncit' in campus area, i get sick in the middle of the test week. Im not blaming anything anyway, mayb ther is ppl tht is more unfortunate that me, or mayb tis time im having a happily ever after life, perhaps this kind of problems is like 'kacang' for certain person..........mayb, mayb, mayb.....

But sometimes i will get into a state wher i c everything in a negative way. Is hard to explain......when im at that state, i tend to get pissed easily, i like to throw things around, slamming doors that i wont usually do(trust me im still doing it now)......it somehow thats another face of myself, the anger part of my self.

Life certainly is not fair. nthg is fair. ther r rich ppl and certainly thr is poor ppl to prove the existance of the rich ppl. Some r getting bad luck all his life but some can happy go lucky on his whole life. Ther is juz too many unexplainable fairness in this world and ya is kinda fuck up.......i hate it.

i dono y im typing tis anyway.....tis is wat i felt.....anyway im still fucking sick now, hope i can well soon.....haiz, life sucks.....