Friday, January 29, 2010

My distance with Him....

After yesterday night having a crappy song leading, im doubting myself if im really eligible 2 serve God in Cf. Some how i got a feeling that im been left out or more like a leftover just 2 fit the numbers. Is obvious that i left god and God din left me.....im giving chance by chance and i still cant do it.....

As others Christian says, christians are ppls who hav sins like everyone on tis planet earth and was trying hard to improve to be good. but sadly it seems like i cant improve at all after tis yrs, i try 2 change but it juz wont last long, i thk im too addicted to tis world......somtimes im thinking how com a person hav such faith and dedication towards he/she's religion.

Anyway, the most important now is i must consider whether to stop everything 4 awhile and rebuild the relationship wit God or juz keep on improving while serving God......

May God lead the road, rest of my life.........

From : seeking God cockroach

Thursday, January 21, 2010

simple yet difficult......

Ar....2day is juz like the same routine, as usual waking up, attend class, waiting the stupid bas, sleep after the minute i get to my room. but 2day it doesnt that 'normal' after all 4 me......i been day-dreaming the whole day basically, in the class, in the bus and even when im walking.

Erm....my day-dream, i flash back a lot of stupid and crappy things that i done 4 d pass few yrs. it kinda emotional, stupid, happy(i seriously doubt that), and some make me felt that y did i even done that 4 the sake of dono who.......dumbass. A tonne of things juz pop-up in my mind. i wont share wat stupid things i hav been doing here.....of course u all will b laughing like hell.

Well, life is weird.....sometimes u felt u encounter the worse thing ever, and the next minute u will b thinking "thats not so bad at all" coz u r facing a even bigger crap that will make u think thats the worse thing ever, AGAIN!!! and on d other hand, talking abt happiness. when u hav a super happy time, u will wish 4 more of tis kind of moment. Sadly, each time u encounter a happy moment, it seem to be less and less happy inside it coz each time u hav a higher expectation towards it.

So, i don mind of this happy and unhappy craps anymore......coz it doesnt mean anyhting, on this minute u r happy and the next minute u may b piss off, that seem 2 b the reality at least that is 4 me.......all i wanted is "SLEEP"!!!!! i mean desperately needed some serious sleeping. MAn....i cant believe i hav 2 going on like tis 4 an whole yr dude.......

Life is simple if u make it simple, life is crap if u mind abt the bad things around u, that all real simple.......

so im trying my best 2 jump out tis small little loop of trouble im been getting in......hopefully

From : ur friendly neighbourhood cockroach

Saturday, January 16, 2010

可以顺利一点吗?

首先,我前几天才上了一个充满了种族歧视和很浓宗教色彩一堂课。基本上我听到我头都要裂了,内容大概就是,不可挑战马来主权,回教是国教和最dulan的就是他说是马来人给机会非马来人住在这而现在非马来人要反咬马来人一口。。。

过后,在前几天我家进了贼。先先是以为不见了一个烂鬼手机和一个烂鬼手表。但后来发现原来不见了几百块还有我妈妈辛苦收集的钱币(那些独立前那种)。

这几天我在想,为什么他们要进我家,毕竟我家只是廉价屋而已叻。。。这件事搞到我这几天都怪怪的。事情一件又一件接着来。。。这个还没搞定,另外一个又来了。

无论如何,至少我父母亲都没事。这才是最重要的。也许,主要我在这件事上学习一些东西也说不定。

from : 认命的小强

Friday, December 18, 2009

Melaka trip......

arh....Melaka the historical city. recently i hav been to melaka for a 2 days 1 nite trip hehe. believe o not, i been to melaka several times and i din visit any famous places ther b4, never. So, tis trip 4 me is still quite good, coz i can visit places that i din been b4.

ok 1st day, we arrive melaka less than 1 hour from seremban. Met cheam's fren(seem like not a quite close fren wit cheam), anyway we will tumpang a night a cheam's fren house.....which i felt a bit paise. after leaving our luggage(actually is juz a bag that all). we having our lunch at a 粒粒鸡饭shop, and we all enjoy the food. Sry ar no picture, coz som1 was too hungry and i din hav the chance to snap any pics.

NExt we went to the so call new shopping centre in melaka, dataran pahlawan. believe o not, we went ther watch 'princess and the frog' but the movie was not bad,we hav been laughing from the start until the end. B4 the movie, we all go 4 an window shopping, the window shopping din work that well coz even a 'kiamsiap' person like me buy a shirt, cant help it........after that we dicided to hav dinner at the Portuguese's village.

at the Portuguese's village, ther is a beach that provide quite a beautiful view.....but the good mood was spoil by a uncle. the hawker of those restaurant at the place was super duper muper guper ruper desperate.....4 customer. The 'uncle' juz follow wherever we go, that make us very irritating....it make me juz wan 2 shout the guy to 'fuck off'. in the end, i din shout him and we din 'bong chan' that uncle stall also......instead we go to go a stall run by a person looks like a Portuguese and also indian. Anyway we had enjoyed our dinner.

the pic below is the decorated x'mas tree at the village......ther r many houses ther decorated incredibly beautiful, the bad part we cant take any pic of it due to some circumstances.
Next stop, we went to jonker street.....bcoz is tuesday....the street seem to b more like a dead street 4 me.....no pasar malam and all the stall are closed. so we dicided to hav a boat ride at the melaka city....below is some SS pics we take during the boat ride......
after that we go 2 a place to yamcha....the view is beautiful.....the place located at a dock or somthing like tat. ther was the place i hav my 1st drop of alcohol, heineken.....it does not taste bad...but it does not taste good either.

Ok the next day, we wake up early to go eat dim sum at a old shop.....the breakfast is good, i enjoy it a lot. Then we go to the 'red house'(i bantai onli the name, i dono wat it call in english). Ther a red colour church and a bunch of musuem. We pay a visit and snap jor many SS and ZBL de picture....but at least i learn somthing out of it. i learn that the money at the old time beside of business dealing, it can also use to kill bcoz the money were rocks......
next we go to dataran pahlawan again!!! coz we kena saman coz din shown the parking ticket at the car. the counter of paying the ticket was located at dataran pahlawan....so we r force to go ther....so we consume some of our time ther....

then suddenly we hav an idea of going to PD(port dickson) actually is juz a dirty beach la. originally, we go ther is to see the sunset de.....but unfortunately the weather is rather cloudy. So all we do is go ther ZBL and take jor some SS de picture lo.....enjoy the breeze wind of the beach lo.
after the so call 'sunset' we head back to seremban lo.....

ok now i would to thank our driver MR. teo zhen kits, without him we wont b able to hav tis trip...
haha, overall i enjoy tis trip....although i din eat much great food....i hav visit many place i nvr been b4....

from : ur friendly neighborhood cockroach