past was juz better than present

2day my fren told me that, is time 4 me 2 chg the group of photo display on my blog. so i did it, juz replace wit some fun moments and some really important frens. when i look back those photos, it juz like yesterday that all those things happen. i cherish every moment of it and i do miss my dye hair alot. guess i wont hav chances 2 doing that again coz my parents wont allow it. so i thk is bye bye dye hair and hello dull guy.......haha.

juz in tis recent months i realise somthing, i notice that i like 2 express all my problem 2 my frens. and here comes the problem, most of my fren r really willing 2 hear all my problems but i din even thought of is, do they willing always receive some craps u throw at them abt tis la, that la, like tis la, like that la........bla bla bla!!!!!!! is juz like u r throwing some rubbish in a rubbish can and in this case the problems is the rubbsh and the rubbish can is my frens.........juz wana say sry to treat u all as rubbish cans........really am sry. from those secondary school gang till meeting mr jeremy at uni....... it seem that i complained alot blaming tis and that. ya is true that life sucks but the least i can do is kept it 4 myself and not to share 2 others. so now, i prefer 2 share the good things that happen in my life rather that sharing my problems.......it juz makes others happier.

but tis bad habits certainly cant chg in 1 or 2 days, it needs time, right i will still share my problems wit my buddies........but hey hopefully i can chg it after tis........

the sun will still rise every morning and yet my butt will still be kick every year(i guess 2011 will also b the same).........so peace out, happy new year and watch out the cockroach bsides u....haha

haiz x2

haha.....juz now going through youtube to find some guitar learning tips video, and i saw tis video named 'learning guitar to get laid'. It juz totally sick man, i din click the link though, coz i noe i wont get 2 the level of get laid k? and the concept is juz bad........guess tis was the consequences of the world of internet.

ok enough of those craps, recently juz too into PPS aka the software with unlimited movie. i even miss out my fren calling out to sing k. which is 1 of the muz do activity during tis holiday, and guess wat i miss it. it was chaotic and it bug me a whole day. besides that, i hav another thing that marked as 'muz do', that is buying a cheapskate guitar (probably suits som1 noob like me). i found a photo that reflects my feeling now.......

notice that the girl in the picture holding a mic rite? ya i miss out the sing-k part, but on the other hand of the girl is holding a guitar........that the part i wan 2 fulfill b4 going 2 bali. i wan 2 buy a guitar........if i cant fulfill tis also, my world will b like the statement of the picture.

but don worry, im certainly not encountering a breakup........but seriously the picture is creative and i like the statement, ppl tend 2 do strange things when they having breakup or their partner making them upset. ad that includes sing-k, ply guitar, ply games especially pc games, threat books serously and even read bible. the last 1 was odd but it is true.......it certainly not my own experience la, if not by now i shld hav a tonnes of bible knowledge. i can still rmb my 'do weird things period' which is plying online games, and after it was recover and u juz cant make it stop. in the end, i end up in UTHM....wahahahaha.

Uhmmm.....i really hope i can have a guitar and planning 2 buy it in this few days. my christmas wish are having a guitar, learn it as fast as possible (coz there is a need of more guitarist in our fellowship) and wish god give me a purpose in life. im a person who can loose his focus easily.......i always keep distracted by things that goes around my life. hope everyday is a good day and everyone can live happily ever after........

juz random.....

nw is approximate 1.20am, and im not feeling sleepy yet. din felt like to ply games or watching movie, so decided 2 write somthing here.

1st stuff, i got 2 c- dy......wonder how many of those r coming. if the trend cont. like tis i cant even get 3.00, and i lower my target liao.....if i really cant get 3.00 i wont go 2 my convocation ceremony. tis time 4 real. juz now having a gathering at old town located at terminal 2. it feel likes so holiday when i hav tis kind of gathering especially wit my old form 6 frens. they even celebrate 3 persons bday, and that includes me la......haappy. still rmb the scene wher i celebrate my bday at parit raja with all those cf member, and i need 2 fetch som1 2 my dono shld i call bday party? hmmm i wonder and causing a little tiny bit of misunderstood ther.......kacau betul. guess happiness does come with some unfinish business huh......ok bak 2 old town, happy bcoz still hav ppl celebrate my bday after 1 months more of my bday~~~and a present that i buy, don she like it o not, i juz simply buy........din kinda survey 1st b4 buying, crappy me. anyway hope she likes it, in a way or another.

haha.......2day my fren ther stab me with her words again.....she said 'u can get a girl easily when u can drive'.......i noe i cant drive but i juz dono how 2 drive man.......but all she said was the truth, actually the whole truth. will try 2 work on that part though, 'kononnya la'. tis yr been to too much wedding ceremony and too much wedding happens, it makes me kinda unbalance mentally, and don worry i wont kill myself, i wont even i always thought of dying. going here and ther ppl r asking u 2 find a gf. and 1 more thing is super duper strange, bcoz everyone in the uni 1st noe me, they will thought i would hav a gf, dono y, and dono how come. example, tis 1 guy a indian named Jo that i meet during my koko class, i told him that im single......he juz said 'nah u r bluffing', then i nid 2 try convince him that i don hav gf even once. next, at the wedding shop(dono wat actually it called), the sales girl ask me to let her organise my wedding when i wanted 2 get married, my fren told him im single and she said impposible, mayb i think too much......mayb she juz wan more business. beside tis 2, ther r a few person that wont believe that i don hav a gf. is juz wat the heck......is my head copped 'im not single'.......so now i juz wanted 2 say that ' im single and not available'........i thk is time i join mr jeremy's ice man club.

home does feels good, nice bed, nice air, nice tv (coz my dad juz apply astro), and of course is nice 2 juz c my parents again. especially my mum. my mum now is juz totally in a good mood, she hav her normal routine cooking, gardening, sewing, watching tv and now she even go 4 morning exercise. b4 tis she cant really go 4 the exercise coz she hav 2 take care my grandma every morning. now that was all history and now is a new beginning 4 her i thk. really glad and grateful that i saw the way my mum is. and thx god 4 giving her life bak........really grateful

haha....now is 1.50am......my eyes started 2 close dy.......biological clock rang and i thk thats it 4 now........and here is a music video by a malaysian singer, the lyrics r good, melody r good and even the whole video is damn meaningful....so enjoy......

i also hav 3 words wanted say........that is 睡觉啦！！！！

So yesterday~~~

Recently, somthing does happens.......and it does felt really funny and i din noe that i hav that charm that can threaten others. haha........i juz share wit 1 of my fren, the incident does remind me of som1..........and 1 song juz pops up of my head which is tis.........hilary duff's so yesterday.......that som1 is sooooooooo yesterday

like her song though..........

hope u all will like it too........

i found the more complete version of王祖蓝's '爱不疚’, honestly tis 3 guys r juz too funny........

Tis wat i called 'Peer Pressure'

The 'peer pressure' is somthing that u juz cant predict.....som1 hav it and dont or rather lost it after ward. for some it does comes easy, for some it does sounds like impposible to them.......somtimes u saw som1 hav it, and u dont......it does achy somtimes. it bcom worse when u saw everyone around u has it and u don......... during my birthday, Seems like every frens of mine reminds me to find it, and yet i din found it yet or rather to b found yet. haha......juz emo a bit la, somthing bugging u, and u cant even solved a simple circuit question.......im not in a mood of sleeping or even gaming. Juz don wan 2 end up like 1 of my fren like always asking god, when will i found it. i thk god will answer him 'patience dude'.......

i honestly dono wat am i saying again.......hope i can slove my tutorial after writing all tis crap here.

It's time 2 conclude.....

Juz like the title stated, i wanted 2 conclude the things that happen 2 me in this yr. Is still november though, and i felt is enough already......too much happening in juz this yr. Haha i wan 2 start my list of happening lo......ok here goes, my house get broke in, my laptop R.I.P, my grandma is having hemodialysis, i got the worse test result in my 2 yrs study which is 3pts, i get the 'All Star Team' members 4 my group project tis sem(is allstar level since he can misspell the lect's name although we hav sms 2 him), my motorcycle broke(it cost me alot of $$$)and recently my grandma pass away.

HAha....elaboration time, 1st up is abt my house get broke in. Im very grateful that my parents are save and were not injured(although their's wallet does injured, somehow). Erm is juz some clever thieve that sneak in, grab some of my mum's money and jewelry.

Next, my laptop gone to heaven or hell (seriously i don noe). This incident makes my wallet bleeds, BIG TIME. My laptop having a black screen problem. The problem is coz by the laptop's design itself......wat can i say, is my luck rite? But seriously, don buy dell dude, i bet u will regret it, especially the inspiron series. it makes me really wana point a middle finger to it......their customer service sure is good, that is b4 the warranty date la of course. Anyhow, im using a asus laptop now, hope it will last.

This is also a big thing, my grandma having her hemodialysis. im not felt pity that my grandma hav 2 gone to that process, the person i care abt is the person who hav 2 take care of my mum which obviously is my mum. B4 tis happens, i hav told my mum that i wouldnt let her 2 take care of my grandma for hemo but when the real things come, i juz can do nothing and watching how tired is my mum. Sometimes i also will get emo when i thought that ther is possibility that my mum will pass away b4 my grandma if this keeps going on.

ARRRRR!!!!!! test.......i get 3 out of 15 marks dude, really wana kill myself lo. tis sem's subject marks are just around ther wont over 10.......haiz.......really god bless me lo.

this is the best part, i get an all star team man. like i mention it earlier, the guy even misspell the lect's name. basically is a 5 men team, 1 guy will do nthg, another guy is juz dono everything, another girl who also dono anything, juz left me and a international student that basically do all the things. IS juz like hell doing all those 5 ppls work.

next, my motor was rosak when i went out to BP to find the component of the all star team project. it coz me 4xx to repair it. Really pokai lo tis time.......rite now i really nid 2 beg money frm my parents.

last, is abt my grandma pass away. is a new experience, i mean the funeral. the whole process was juz smoke and boring. As the eldest grandson of my grandma, i hav no choice but 2 skip all my class and presentation 2 attend the funeral. For real, those few days is juz like hell for me, im juz non-stop, like restless. bcoz after the funeral i hav 2 take bus bak 2 johor immediately 4 my presentation coz u all also noe la, all star team lai de ma. Erm.....my feeling when i noe my grandma pass away? actually im quite hapy abt it, im like 90% happy and 10% sad. happy is bcoz grandma wont hav 2 suffer anymore and 2nd my mum will not b suffering any longer. So, don say i cruel or merciless......

But despite of all those bad things, but try to look at the bright side. i hav a been to many places tis yr. tis yr i have been to cameroon, sabah, singapore, terengganu and later tis december will b going bali. and muz b grateful that, although i din hav any good things happen in my life, but i sure hav a good parents especially hav a great mum......

anyway, Tis yr many things does happen.........hope next yr could b a good good year.

so here i wish everyone 恭喜发财，年年有余，升官发财，早生贵子。。。。。the last macam takda kaitan but nvm.......wish everyone all da best.

Terengganu trip^^

It was week 13 of the semester, despite of a tonne of un-finish assignment. I followed a trip 2 terengganu. It was organised by the koko subject which i take 4 tis sem, keusahawanan aka entrepreneurship.

The state badge......

1st stop, Noor Arfa butik factory outlet. but it doesnt seems like too much a factory 4 me though. Is more like a shopping center with onli butik's goods. Quite boring de going ther.

Demonstrate how the pattern of the batik was painted on it. It was easy in my opinion, but somtimes things will b not as simple as it looks.

The view of the river bside the Noor Arfa batik.......actually is more relaxing seeing the nature compare to those batik......mayb i juz dono how 2 appreciate the beauty of the batik.

After the visit to arfa batik, we head to the resort we will b staying that nite......the room was nice and we hav free time 2 explore ourself too. the lect gives us alot of freedom during the trip.

After a short rest at the resort, we went to pasar besar kedai payang, which obviously is a market and it does stinks. At the pasar i buy a cheap t-shirt 4 myself.

The group members of my group.......and the fat 1 afnan is my coursemate too.....

Then we went to dataran syahbandar which located near the pasar.

Then we went to visit the crystal mosque, and these are the 'few' non-malays that following the trip....haha

The mosque so big.......still nid signboard meh?

Seriously the mosque was huge, and i think it cost alot......

Another view of the mosque, but the crystal does looks like copper.....haha no offense k.......i like the mosque design.......

The next day we went to dungun again 4 our lunch b4 heading bak 2 to our king of drain aka Parit Raja.........the view of the seaside is great and the food ther also boleh tahan.....

below is some the sea view photo i hav taken.......

Although i din watch turtle or visit UMT, overall it is a nice trip. I thk tis post shld b long enough since ther is som1 complaining my post too short, haha. I like trips, especially those trips which r FOC.....

Peace out.......

haha......edited version of baby of justin bierber

Seriously, tis is juz laughing my head off.........so enjoy

A scene from a drama reminds me of something

Haha when i went bak home after watching Piranha, i watched a hk drama with my family. basically is boring. is not bcoz the storyline is boring, is bcoz i watched the full episodes already. Even though i watch it b4, it still touched me somehow at a certain scene that showed 2nite.

The scene was the boy try 2 confess to a girl with a DIY cake(is a quite creative and cute cake). Im not touched coz of the storyline, but i recall the moment when i watch it with my ex-roommate. By that time, we 2 felt that y that storyline looks so familiar.......and then we realise is kinda like our cases. Then we started 2 sing the song '爱。不。疚‘. we 2 always sing the chorus part which '放手，放开所有，。。。。。’. And after we finish watching the drama, we come out wit a conclusion that the storyline may be happening in our life but it would not necessarily to had a good ending coz life is not drama. Drama alwayz will hav an happy ending but life doesnt.......

here is a funny version of 爱。不。疚 by 王祖蓝

he actually changed the '放手‘ into ’放狗‘。。。。really laugh die me la......

anyhow, i hope my life will hav an happy ending like all those dramas do......

U cant live without any faith.....

the word 'faith'......the meaning is so simple yet it could b hard 2 understand and practice too. everyone will hav certain degree of faith on things or person that they trusted. recently really felt that the sentences 'with faith we can move a mountain', through prayer that im practicing everyday......it can really c the differences. Its like god hears wat u say and He will helps u directly and indirectly.

sometimes i kinda thought of that maybe i pray 4 god 4 a girlfriend ar, will He granted my wish leh? haha, really after everything i been through, now i saw light. perhaps i could juz wish 4 something that i havnt wish for.....hehe.

haha im still struggling whether wanted to put tis statement in my praying list......still thinking..... still thinking...... and stilllllll thinkinggggg. the thing i really worried about is im not a good person, i will eventually pissed som1 off. and im not a qualified person 2 takecare of another person anyway.

So, wish me luck.....

yet again......tis passage i basically dono wat im writing, if u cant understand certain sentences juz ignore it....haha

this is wat i call meaningful.....yet really teasing

Tis is a music video i felt very meaningful by Da.Mon.Ster called expired rubbish.....the rubbish here refer is the 'parents' that brought u up with love and care. Why is refer as rubbish.....bcoz in our society nowadays, ppl used to dump their old parents to the old folk's house aka rubish bin.

I like tis song even when there is no MV clip, the meaning of tis song is juz simple and yet many ppl fail 2 do it......so enjoy the video, hope that the video will have some impacts on u as it like the video does to me......Enjoy!!!!

WAt a Music ViDEo......WaO

The 1st time i saw tis music video, the music was juz soso la........but the scene in the music video maks me fell in deep depress, dono y? felt like im juz in ther, and actually i din experince any of it at all......

the music video is basically was a girl that was very close 2 guys at the same time, the main character din act quick enough 2 propose 2 the girl 2 married him coz the other guy propose to her earlier i thk juz a few minutes......haiz.

the worse part is the main character nid 2 play the piano on the girl's wedding day and act like nthg happen. can u imagine watching the person u love on the wedding gown and the person bsides her is not u. Ouch!!! and thats hurts........

tis video ahd that impact on me and hope u all will enjoy it, of coz not in the way that i felt......

from : friendly neighbourhood cockroach

没那么简单。。。

歌有的唱，没那么简单，就能找到一个休息站（好像不是这样唱的）~~~但我的问题是我找不到休息站。。。

这个压力又是另外一种压力，压力从自己发出的。。。有些事你是很有心要做的，但当你遇到一些挫折的时候，你又会去怪人家，都是‘谁谁谁’的错。。。到头来也只能怪自己做的不好。我也终于明白要搞好一个事工真的需要时间，心思，关爱还有神（这点非常重要），没了这一点就好像在做节目而已。

之前，我们都是好像在为了节目而做节目，完全miss 掉‘为神而做’的这个道理。当人家攻到来了，我们还傻傻搞不清楚，还去怪别人，haiz.......真不应该。我很想做好自己的本分，但是就是做不好，毕竟个人能力有限，要做的话需要大家的合作，我们都好像一盘散沙。

还有就是，那些所谓'上面'的对话，我真的behtahan啦。他们讲话就是假来假去的，整个对话就是一个字‘假’。我们有时为了一些利益还要跟他们假。大家都是为主作主工而已何必呢！老实说，我很不喜欢假来假去的对话，我宁愿是骂来骂去的，骂到丢桌子也无所谓，就是不要假。他们的意愿是好的，但他们的处理方式不对。详细情况我不能说太多，因为曾经有我们当中一个弟兄把不满写在blog，然后被人开枪射到很惨。。。

还有的压力都是自己的私事啦！没什么好讲的。

小强名言：做人很假，人家会鄙视，做人真的话，人人服你

My dream dog would be.......

b4 tis if ppl ask me wat dog would u like 2 hav if u hav the chance 2 bela 1......my answer would b a siberian husky......the dog was juz so cute and the eyes were beautiful too.

but now after the Melaka El-sanctuary camp, i changed my mind........if others ask me the question again i will defintely answer them 'golden retriever'!!!!!! ther r 3 golden retriever ther in El-sanctuary, all of them r juz so friendly and they even follow or lead u the way in El-Sanctuary. They r juz like escorting u to the d place u wana go.......

the dogs r also extremely discipline and obeys wat their owner told them to do.......is juz like watching the dog makes u feel so secure and happy in the same time. mayb is bcoz their long golden fur when they r running.

here r same photo i taken wit the dog......cant take too much thought coz im 1 of d ajk of the camp.........

my 1st kiss given to a dog.....haha, but who cares......it happens when i try to bend down myself taking photo using my handphone, and that the time the dog kissed me......

really hope that i hav a chance 2 hav a golden retriever, besides money ther r a lot more nided 2 b consider that is tis kind of dog needs a large space for it to run......if not it will not feel happy.....

so.....that all i think, many things needed 2 b settle b4 i can get hold myself a golden retriever......haha, peace out~~~

solution 4 those heartbreakers out there.....

experiences heart break........dono wat 2 do? maybe tis picture could help.......

found it when im trying 2 search another picture........i shld try it next time when i started to emo.......haha!!!!!

or juz we can organize such marathon juz 2 relieve ppl's pressure or burden........sound pretty fun huh?

seems to be too early

i can still rmb last sem at tis kind of time, im complaining to my ex-roommate Mr Jeremy that the fade up feeling is killing me. Although at that moment was juz few weeks after the new semester starts. But tis semester seems worser than last semester.

All of tis was juz bcoz 1 word 'pressure', im having a tough time of my family problem. Im facing the problem that seems until now i still cant find a solution 2 it, although i try 2 confront it and was happy i made it through but clearly was not enough. i also hav d burden on my studies, i wanted 2 target a 2nd upper at least. u juz cant say u juz wana try ur best and accept wat u get in the end, tis mayb true for me of the pass but now is different. i hav certain expectation in my pathetic life.

I miss my mum so much but i cant juz quite go bak 2 Seremban due to some obstacle......can say is an obstacle, is more like a responsibility. Actually i was worried rather than missed her. i really worried that she will eventually fall sick having those hard works everyday.......that certainly doesnt makes me feel good when im studying........HAIZ.........

juz like 1 of my fren said that, every1 hav their own problem, it depends on how would u solve it....and i juz took her advise of split it out in this post.....hope it will do some good to me......help me to focus more and giving bak the will that i loss long time ago.......

thx 4 reading these craps im writing........peace out~~~

Sabah trip part 3

Recently too bz la.......cant finish the sabah trip post......well tis is the last of it......

cant rmb wat day is it, we went to Kudat and visited actually staying at their traditional rungus longhouse, according to the signboard la......personally i didnt felt that traditional lo.

im quite please of staying ther except the big spider(im not scare and it juz disgusting), my mp3 felt off during midnite and yes the lovely mosquitos......damn!!!!

tis is wat basically the long house looks like.........we get ther, left our bags......taking some ss picture and we r set to the tip of bornoe for sunset......

here r some ss photo.......

tis is the landmark of tip of borneo, the place in d picture is d dog's ear on the sabah map(sabah's map actually looks like a dog head anyway).

i act a bit pondan ther dono y?

anyway we din hav the chance 2 c d sunset coz it was juz too cloudy........T.T

then at nite, we celebrate our beloved doreamon and rabbit's birthday~~~~haha, wana say that 4 a long time~~~~hehe

tis is wat i call low cost yet meaningful bday cake~~~is special and most important is CHEAP!!!

at least we din hav Papa roti 4 d cake........i thk cheam will whack us if we really do that.....

the coconut pudding on d way bak 2 kk......is kinda sweet though, so is depends on u. if u like sweet then it should b a nice experience of eating it.

the kupang or kerang i dono la, it certainly taste better than the coconut pudding la, haha coz i like 'lala' kind of stuff.......

guess wat......doreamon taking picture with doreamon leh........haha, she will whack me after she c tis post.......she cant whack me until november anyway......so no fear......

her present......

his present......

our pizza that nite......taste so Chinese coz using balck mushroom in it......

the two holding their present.......

haha.....at that nite also we went 2 1 of the night club at kk which is Firefly if im not mistaken.....

everyone put on their make up.......and of course they all r pretty that nite......if i din say s i will get whack.......Cheam s d prettiest coz her bday ma.......haha.....hope tis make up somthing and wont make her whack me......

and that is me, and half face of jc.....sry jc, thats the onli photo that i look normal.....really sry

the beer we were having that nite......is corona if im not mistaken.....

overall, is a very nice trip.....im glad im ther, we laugh until our head's off everyday........so damn miss that momnet.......haiz........i don wan tis dull life!!!!!!!

from : cockroach that wants another trip wit frens

Sabah trip part 2

Tis is d 4rd day in sabah.....

we wake up quit late though, and we manage 2 hav our brunch.....that is 鱼杂粉.

tis bowl of mee hon taste quite good, but it cant really make my stomach full lo.

after the brunch, we start our journey again....tis time beaufort...

tis is d landmark we seen when we arrive beaufort......is kinda looks like coconut or 柚子.

after we check in an low cost or can i say low + lame inn, we head to the river cruise.....monkey here i come, haha!!

Welcome to Klias River Cruise, and juz ignore those models below d signboard. the river cruise starts abt 5pm. 1st we go c proboscis monkeys, then we wait 4 sunset. when the sky turns dark....the boat driver will try find crocodile( c-ing a croc is depends on ur luck). Luckily we did c 1 big and small crocodile. When the sky turns totally dark, we hav the chance 2 c the fireflies.....is really beautiful.

forgot wats the real name of tis monkey....the local call it 'beckham' monkey....try notice its head and u will noe y. and 4 d 1st time, i been told that monkeys also got bachelor group that hav no mates and likes to 钩三搭四. is kinda like the mafia in d monkey society.

and yea, me on d boat......

the view through out river is juz beautiful......it makes me wonder how nature could so beautiful. we take tonnes of picture, we even joking say that we could change our pc background everyday.

our 大合照with our tour guide......really respect their's skill for finding monkeys and crocodile.

the aunties OPS!!! sry, the ladies on d boat.......

photo taken after the ride....is so so late......but is actually 7 somthing onli.

haha.....'kedai saya', found it in beaufort.

ok......then we left beaufort on d 5th day morning. we r going bak 2 kk and planning on a invasion 2 UMS....haha

here are some photo we take in UMS......

tis taken in UMS personal owned beach......to bad they sold out the jetty, if not we can go ther 2 hav a look.

tis is the UMS aquarium......it cost u RM3 if u don hav a UMS matrix card.

ther is 3-2 turtles inside ther......and is quite worth it 4 juz RM3.

tis is the whale skeleton........

the turtles......dead of curse.....

tis is the 1 of the 2 lecture hall in UMS......

tis was taken at the entrance of their engineering faculty.....

tis was taken at their biggest hall in UMS.....is really damn huge, juz like an opera hall.

tis was taken outside UMS's HEP office......after the shoot we were ask 2 leave coz we park our car at the entrance of d hall.....the guard juz shout like a mad dog.....and thats is so........kns, juz like those indian in singapore.

So that is day 4 and 5.......is still very fun and of course, my wallet is still losing its weigh......i guess that all 4 tis post.....peace out.

from : ur friendly neighbourhood cockroach

Sabah trip part 1

haha.....the last trip of tis holiday......Sabah!!!!

the members of the trip are basically my old form 6 frens....

ok....1st up is after arriving in Sabah......we take a cab 2 kits's house.....on the way we said that the street of kk was clean, at least better than seremban la. then the driver suddenly tell us that the street was so clean is bcoz the prime minister is coming. when i heard it, i felt like (=.=)|||

After unpacking at kits's house, we go the port of beaufort......for our 1st or rather scary adventure.

we r all gear up and ready 4 action. originally, we planned to hav 3 island snookering trips and unfortunately we r not allow 2 do so bcoz we arrive ther too late. tis make us hav 2 choose onli 1 island onli. anyway we r heading a island called Pulau Sapi.

the naked me, and 2 lenglui......by the way, we juz waiting 4 d boat 2 fetch us back to the port.

i scare i will make myself wet again, so i juz simply naked.

the jetty of the Sapi island, its raining and we r so cold and worry......we even make joke with our frens to make a last phone call 2 our parents, in case we din make it.....choi!!!!

so we actually did make it to the port though, we r all wet and the boat ride was juz unexplainable, exciting yet torturing at the same time.

the 2nd day, we went to kundasang, the place wher the kk mountain's entrance located. of coz we din climb the mountain, if not i will b broke by now.

here r some ss photos.....

tis photo taken in a rest station on the way 2 d entrance of the mountain.....

again....we 'puntut gatal' abit, we walk up 2 d mountain's entrance. in d photo can c dao mee fan is catching her breathe. although is abit tiring but with the nice breeze wind and fresh air, everything seems worth it. i still rmb the song cheam singing by that time, '没那么简单，就能找一个休息站‘,everyone was so tire and so desperate 2 find a rest station.

tis is the entrance's of the kk mountain.....beyond tis is no man land except those who r climbing the mountain of coz.......

after the mountain walk, we went 2 d Poring hot spring if i did not mistaken the name. the hot spring is so not hot ther.....

our view from our hostel that we stay for that nite, the D'villa. the design of the hostel is kinda like kinder garden but the facilities ther r complete and we all r satisfied 4 that.

at night we tend 2 b a little bit crazy, ther is me with the famous red banana. red banana seems 2 be like a curse, i lose every card game when the red banana is around me.

tis is us taking picture wit our junk food that includes potato chips, biscuits, cup noodles and Ridsect?

tis is the incident that i called it the 'pisang patah incident', cant say much though, if not the person involve will kick my ass,

we hav a western style breakfast at d D'villa......the breakfast is totally better than i expected.

photo taken on 1 of d hostel's pondok.

next we move on to the kundasang war memorial. is juz basically a place wher kept record of the history of australian soldier sacrifice in the death march......trust me the japanese sure is cruel and merciless.

tis is the new zealand cow farm......som1 did step somthing ther......and i cant tell who and wat......

tis is the nature park, we did manage 2 wondering around doing juz nthg and we din join the jungle trekking team anyway. mayb we juz too tire.

then on the way bak 2 kk.....we stop at d pine resort. the resort hav a nice view of the surrounding. the place is nice and even have rabbits ther but the price was even nicer. student like us don usually live at tis kind of place, unless u plan 2 broke urself la.....

i thk i will stop, i cont on my next post......too many photos and yet too much 2 describe.

from : ur friendly neighbourhood cockroach

Singapore trip part 2

this is the 3rd day and was the last day in singapore (cant stay ther long, i will really broke b4 going to sabah).

we took a photo b4 we leave the tresor tavern.....

later we took mrt to ang mo kio and taking a bus to our destination.......

Singapore zoo......is a newly establish as wat i heard.....

Here are some animal photos.....

and here is the polar bear.....the animal i like the most in the zoo.....

haha......the polar bears are hiding themselves inside their 'air conditioned' den.....i wana 2 hav a den like tat too, can i?

the tallest polar bear can be twice as my size.....and that is huge......

kangaroo coming through.......give way pls......it is a common signboard in australia anyway.

so that it......our trip is finish after the zoo......we took a cab 2 the railway station 2 find out that the train hav an some technical problem and they cancel all the service of the day.......damn!!!!u sure noob la ktm.......

we manage to squeezing ourself through woodland and end up taking a bus from Larkin to seremban......

it is a new experience, i learn a lot and hav a lot of fun though......although felt bad 4 cheam cheam that she would hav 2 visit bak places that she hav been b4 and b our volunteer tour guide. i would like to say thanks, i really appreciate it....a lot.

from : cockroach which dulan ktm railway company

Singapore trip.......part 1

oh yeah......juz b4 going 2 Sabah, my frens and i decided 2 pay our neighbour a visit and that is Singapore. although im studying in Johor, im din even been to JB and don mention Singapore.

juz b4 that i would like to present the members of the trip........1st our couple gang.....

ms tay and mr pow

and now i would like to introduce the single gangs......

mr ooi and ms cheam........1 word pathetic.

we actually take a ktm train to singapore, and this is the 1st MRT station that started our journey..

is a totally new experince in singapore's railway station....is juz so nthg like Malaysia. the train is faster, the people are faster and even their escalators are faster....i nearly fell when i 1st step into the escalator.

this is the place wher we been staying 4 2nights.......is a backpacker hostel (we staying ther is bcoz it was a low budget trip) named Tresor Tavern. the place kinda disappoint me though coz i expect to c some european chicks ther......instead i onli saw some banglah ther.....and that is way off my expectation. but nvm, at least it is cheap.

so for the 1st day, we arrived at the hostel around 5pm. after taking a rest and gel-ing up my hair, like in this photo..........we are ready to go.......

lolx.....juz kidding, actually tis happens when i woke up after sleep. everyone saw tis picture will ask me, r u using gaspy.....or juz asked me 'still standing?'

then we hav a dinner in a what i call average chinese restaurant. the food is average and the price is beyond average if u convert it into RM la of course.

then we went to city hall if im not mistaken to c the legendary merlion which is a lion that pees through its mouth.....haha juz kidding.

actually the view ther at night was beautiful.....is a muz go attraction.

and next esplanade,

the place in my opinion works like a multi-purpose hall.....includes theater hall and bla bla bla....i like the durian like struture of the building, it kinda makes me hungry......

tis was the art picture taken inside the esplanade......i like tis kind of art......it gives u a sense of freedom like no border restrict.....u can drawing juz anything....

thats kinda wrap up our 1st day.

now the second day, we wake up early, i cant remember wat time. tat day we were heading to singapore's latest tourists attraction(thats wat i think), the sentosa island.

we stop at harbourfront mrt station, walk in to vivo city and paid 3$ 2 take a express train to the island.

1st stop.....universal studios

for certain, we din enter to the theme park. i heard ther is not a lot of things 2 ply inside...and the main point is the ticket coz 6x$ per person.......damn

then we went to siloso beach

the beach is basically beautiful and strong wind.....and guess wat, is ss photo session......here a some ss photo......

next we went to watch the dolphin show in underwater world......this are the some photo taken

and this are taken in the aqurium.....

then we also explore some places in sentosa island......such as the fake merlion....bigger in size

then after sentosa...we move to chinatown 2 find our dinner......

having sausage according to my fren is from germany.....i check it on9 and it say is aussy style. but who cares it is delicious.......

the 'tang yuan' stall.....the tang yuan consist of 5 flavour which is green tea, black pepper, red bean, peanut and 1 more i 4got liao...hehe. it taste good though.

after chinatown......we kinda 'puntut gatal', we wana walk from chinatown to clarke quay.....we kinda make it though.....sibe tired d.....

i still rmb cheam cheam keep asking "where is the maybank?"......is kinda funny, finding maybank in singapore......anyway we manage to b ther.....

is kinda pub and bistro street of singapore......many ang mo......and juz kinda escape from the india surrounding.......i say so is bcoz, no matter we go wher, we can c india tourists......and they r kinda impolite.

the river ther was beautiful also.......

and yes i meet rio ferdinand having holiday in singapore since his injury in south africa.....haha juz kidding.....

so that is day 2.......was a great experience. saw many fish, did a lot of walking, saw many ang mo and yes.....understand that most india tourist are impolite........really wana scold them kns.

im stopping here.....i felt the post is juz too long.....i will cont on next post

from : cockroach which run away to singapore

friends.....is still the best way to be

erm.....wher do i start leh?

a fren juz surprise me by giving somthing im looking 4 for some times......although i found that thing i wanted b4 she giv it to me.....but i still felt grateful and unexplainable happy. she din charge me 4 that though, although is nthg expensive.....haha, mayb my expression was juz too desperate when i tell her that i wanted that thing, and she said she noe wher to get it 4 me, and i say ok and i meant it she was joking.....seriously, we used to be close but not so close in recent year.

it some how makes me feel like i found a long lost fren.....but it doesnt really sound right.......felt extremely happy....

and i still havnt get my complete singapore and sabah , im desperately 2 blog it...so i guess i nid 2 wait lo...

from : cockrouch who don wan 2 go bak to uni

walk bravely without any fear

sometimes our life is juz like playing wit us, the game was juz basically unfair and it hav major control of you. ok now u hav 2 choices, either u accept ur fate by making urself falls even deeper or u juz pick up the challenge and strive urself a victorious trophy.

our life is full of choices, is either u make the right 1 or d wrong 1. ther is not a third option. without any doubt, sometimes ther is no right or wrong choices given, u choose either of it will make ur path a rough 1. but as a human, we shouldn't been giving up so easily........our faith is affected by our thought. when think negatively when encounter a problem, u will b definitely been kick-ass or having a lot more hell of trouble. on the other side, thinking positively at least let u make a much appropriate decision in a totally chaos situation.

and juz another tiny little thing, 'you will never walk alone'. i copy tis slogan from a football club la actually. u will nvr hav to face any problem alone, rmb u still hav frens and family's member or even AKPK (haha juz kidding la)........

a problem will still remain a problem as long as u think u cant fix it.........so, be brave and walk down the path u hav chosen.

Peace out.......

微不足道

finally.......i figure it out liao....wahahahaha

i quite odd 2 hav an chinese title with an english passage.....im kinda sad and happy in the same time. i found somthing 2 support my theory. i cant figure any suitable english phrase 4 that.....so i use chinese instead.

2day go yamcha with jessie and mei sin....1st i thought go gossip-gosip with them de coz really long time i din c dao jessie dy. 2day dono y? i met many of my old frens. 1st i met kwei loong, a fren i din wana 2 met actually, blek...he still asking me y i don wan 2 add him in facebook :P. then i met wei lun and chee onn, haha is juz really long time din met chee onn, is kinda like yesterday i ply basketball with him.

haha...the conversation suddenly bcome a wat i called 'chee onn's romance sharing time'. that guy share about his love life la actually. that guy really 痴情de lo, say real la, i don think he is that type of guy b4 tis, but now i really wana say wao......that guy really sibe 伟大. cant mention the leading girl actor's name....all i can say is the guy now still help her swifting her stuff, teach her how 2 drive, try 2 save his relationship 2 months that long after the breakup( the relationship juz maintain for 4 months onli). yet his feeling to her is so strong. even now he is still paying for her broadband, really fuck his life.

ther is a lot more detail i din mention but trust me, i would b sad to heard and i would think i can do it anyway. his sharing is like giving me a big slap to myself.........suddenly felt im juz nothing compare to his. i guess i get it now.....the answer i needed. refer to wat chee onn said that don put in real feeling and u will get hurt. haha, thats so damn true.

wahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha......................abit siao now again............

又来emo咯。。。

哈哈，昨晚不是睡得很好，因为想了太多东西。。。我这个人就是酱，不能睡就想多多,真的是有够力犯贱。。。最后，弄到自己累累的都不懂为了什么？

昨天想的东西因该是破完我之前的记录。我因该谁不到半个小时把。我可以从家人想到人生目标，然后又到童年，然后又想到电脑。。。。真够力无聊。

好的，家人啊。。。。我觉得我妈真的受罪咯，这5-6年一直照顾那两位老古董。虽然那两位老古董从来没看得起我妈，因为我妈的家庭不富有（白鸽眼）。她任劳任怨，默默的付出，从来没有一句怨言。果然，妈妈真的是很伟大。。。

这又让我联想起到其他的事，人生目标。还记得那天有个朋友在我家‘算’了我一句“你几时找个人来帮下你妈”，我听到stun了一下，我没答他就走了。这一方面我是真的很无助的咯，人又不是长到很好看，又不会幽默，做人有没有什么情趣，每天都是‘傻刚刚’过日子的。还有我是独生子，我以后的责任会很大。还记得我一个好朋友跟我说过，他说我不是他，他可以不用对父母有太大的负担因为他说他还有弟妹，但我且没有，然后还叫我‘拾生’。想到这一点就令我想起我不想再看到我妈妈的二号，一天到晚为了照顾老人家而搞到‘整身蚁’。所以叻我还是不要打人家女儿的主意比较好。所以说，要找一个她，还是算了吧！！！

然后，我又会想到我的童年。我的童年没什么特别好的回忆，不过也没有什么不好的事发生啦。只是想起小的时候每天生病，我都不懂花了父母多少血汗钱。突然想起儿时的卡通片《transformer》，很想再看会不懂还有机会吗？

之后就想到我的电脑，它在我开始放假没几天就了。这次真的又要大出血了。。。。

过后我在想什么我也忘了，然后就迷迷糊糊的睡了大概半个小时就给闹钟吵醒了。因为那天要早起，要去做passport。去到那边也是‘傻刚刚’酱，哪一个counter叫我也分不清楚，还个人家shoot了几下。。。

把东西都写完啦，希望今晚能有一觉好睡啦。。。。。

from : 傻刚刚的蟑螂

another randomzzz....

haha....recently juz too much things clogging my head again.....2day i witness myself my mother's fatigue look again!!!! tis few days, she is completely restless taking care of my grandma. im trying my best on helping her on the housework part(except cooking la of course, im a complete idiot when comes to cooking). And yet she still feel tired and 2day i nid to hold her to get a chair in a shopping center in order for her 2 get some rest......geeezz.....i don like tis scene at all, it kinda make me hate those 2 old folks. ya i noe wat u all will thk, the 2 folks still my grandparents and i notice that. 2day i confess to my mum that i hate those 2 old folks very much, my mum answer me she knew it all along but she get things wrong on the reason i hate them. my mum thought that i hate them is bcoz they din treat me well when i was a child, thats true la but is juz not enough 4 me 2 hate them. i told my mum that they making my mum miserable is the reason y i hate them so damn much. is been 5 yrs i thk since my mum having the disease that suppose to forbidden her from doing any stressful. instead, she been taking care of that 2 old junks......making her health a day worser than another.....i will hav the ' wana cry tendency' again when everytime i thought abt tis matter. everytime i complain to my father that tis job is just too much 4 my mum.....my mum will always interrupt our conversation and say 'it's ok, im fine and i still can manage to do it.' the scene i witness 2day i thk i will keep happen again and again, juz like deja vu. sometimes i juz hope that...................................and all will b over.

all i can do is help her as much as i could.........haiz, my father is not in a good shape too. he hurts his back when he try to carry my grandma into the car. now he is been taking diff kind of pain-killer, seem like none of it is working well..........FML

from : cockroach that witnessing that cruel of reality

i nearly.....

as u all noe, im not the person that cries a lot....

well 2day i nearly drop my tears out.....it happen when i saw my mother suddenly hav no strength to walk and thx god that ther is a bar bside the lane that she can hold on.

dono y, at that moment i felt like my heart was stab by a knife or somthing bad. my mother tiredness was due to a whole of tough job which is taking care of my grandma......taking care of a old folk can b really exhausted, i experience myself for taking care my grandma for juz an couple of hour. sometime really felt i wana salute to my mum....that she can take care of her for a whole day.

i suddenly felt that i wana learn cooking so that i can help out my mum and if it is ok, driving too..... coz things get real bitchy recently.....haiz.....the 2 persons that i care most was sick. that makes a sick person taking care of a sick person that doesnt understand the meaning of the word 'appreciation'.

last, hope those 2 old folks don bark at each other and don try to kill each other and also don coz a lot of trouble to us......i seen enough, i will crack soon.....

Relieve.....temporarily......

Yes!!! finally he is gone for a few days a least.....i felt relieve and a bit awkward at the same time. But somehow i felt my mum feels more relieve than me....and that a good sign and i like it^^

Here the story, my grandma suddenly was send to the hospital coz she felt in the toilet and was bleeding (u all noe that bleeding 4 a diabetes patient hav severe consequences). Thx god her wound recover and now another problem arise. She started to hav mental problem, she started to scold ppl and even fight back when the nurse or doctor try to get the needle into her skin. So now basically she was tight with her hands and legs around the bed bcoz of her 'superb' behavior and that will make the doctor's job more easier and also others safety. But for the record, today she is fine and no more superb behavior, her legs was release but the hands still tight to the side of the bad la. Anyway, i seriously hope that she will recover soon.

Ok next, the best part. When my grandfather knew that my grandma was send to the hospital and act abit 'kisiao' in the hospital. He also felt relieve, dono y but he does look abit happy. He keep telling me and my mother that my grandma will be send to a phyco center soon or mayb less that a week. by that time, when i heard wat he said, in my head was thking 'wat? u curse ur on wife to go 'tanjung rambutan' ar?'. But anyway his reaction can be reasonable coz the reason he move in to my house is bcoz my grandma beat him with a stick during midnight bak in their old house. So, my grandpa quickly make his decision to move bak to his old house. And im so happy that i saw him packing all of his things bak compare to the last time when my grandma entering the wad but without the crazy thing la of course......but his mattress still in my house, and that worried me like hell that he will be back soon.

2day, the 1st grandpa-less day since the pass few months. i hav a good time chatting wit my mum and i mean talk anything without hesitation. my mum complain a lot of things when 'he' is in home and she felt relieve coz she said that she gain her freedom bak in her own house. And i really enjoy chatting with my mum, i dono y but i juz like it. so i hope that my mum really can get some good rest these few days when he is no around....dono he will b bak o not?

my mum feels happy, i also feel happy. i really felt like i wana jumping around my house when my grandpa said he was going to his old home.

finally, i hope my grandma will recover soon, and everything will run smooth since she now started to hav hemodialysis. hope my mum's cough which last a few months already will get better. hope everything will b good and earth will be a safer place for living(erm guess i watch too much english series, side effects). oh and hope he is not coming back....i mean never....^^"

from : cockroach thk that some cockroach does fly

New layout, new post

Haha i juz change my blog layout, the truth is it's easy and din take much time actually.....juz some copy and paste that university's student are good at.

Tis is juz another random post, when 2 swim tis morning, is more like a sunbath.....my skin tonne totally change from dark to even darker, shit!!! go swimming, watching a koala bear teaching another koala bear son to swim and wat u noe, the koala bear son can swim now.....haha.

For the 1st time i cant sleep the whole nite yesterday since i got home, i guess im juz havnt suit myself in my new room though or my mind is wondering around that coz it happen......anyway, it time 2 move over i think, my blog hav a new skin and i thought i should hav a new self too.

For the past few days, actually a few weeks since the holiday started, wat i do is downloading movie and plying stupid pc game (cant show the name here, it juz so dumb). Chasing a series called Fringe, i thk i juz addicted to it.....im so determined and eager to finish the series....haiz. When will i do something more useful instead of watching, plying and sleeping.......FML

From : Cockroach cant fly.....