My distance with Him....

After yesterday night having a crappy song leading, im doubting myself if im really eligible 2 serve God in Cf. Some how i got a feeling that im been left out or more like a leftover just 2 fit the numbers. Is obvious that i left god and God din left me.....im giving chance by chance and i still cant do it.....

As others Christian says, christians are ppls who hav sins like everyone on tis planet earth and was trying hard to improve to be good. but sadly it seems like i cant improve at all after tis yrs, i try 2 change but it juz wont last long, i thk im too addicted to tis world......somtimes im thinking how com a person hav such faith and dedication towards he/she's religion.

Anyway, the most important now is i must consider whether to stop everything 4 awhile and rebuild the relationship wit God or juz keep on improving while serving God......

May God lead the road, rest of my life.........

From : seeking God cockroach

simple yet difficult......

Ar....2day is juz like the same routine, as usual waking up, attend class, waiting the stupid bas, sleep after the minute i get to my room. but 2day it doesnt that 'normal' after all 4 me......i been day-dreaming the whole day basically, in the class, in the bus and even when im walking.

Erm....my day-dream, i flash back a lot of stupid and crappy things that i done 4 d pass few yrs. it kinda emotional, stupid, happy(i seriously doubt that), and some make me felt that y did i even done that 4 the sake of dono who.......dumbass. A tonne of things juz pop-up in my mind. i wont share wat stupid things i hav been doing here.....of course u all will b laughing like hell.

Well, life is weird.....sometimes u felt u encounter the worse thing ever, and the next minute u will b thinking "thats not so bad at all" coz u r facing a even bigger crap that will make u think thats the worse thing ever, AGAIN!!! and on d other hand, talking abt happiness. when u hav a super happy time, u will wish 4 more of tis kind of moment. Sadly, each time u encounter a happy moment, it seem to be less and less happy inside it coz each time u hav a higher expectation towards it.

So, i don mind of this happy and unhappy craps anymore......coz it doesnt mean anyhting, on this minute u r happy and the next minute u may b piss off, that seem 2 b the reality at least that is 4 me.......all i wanted is "SLEEP"!!!!! i mean desperately needed some serious sleeping. MAn....i cant believe i hav 2 going on like tis 4 an whole yr dude.......

Life is simple if u make it simple, life is crap if u mind abt the bad things around u, that all real simple.......

so im trying my best 2 jump out tis small little loop of trouble im been getting in......hopefully

From : ur friendly neighbourhood cockroach

可以顺利一点吗？

首先，我前几天才上了一个充满了种族歧视和很浓宗教色彩一堂课。基本上我听到我头都要裂了，内容大概就是，不可挑战马来主权，回教是国教和最dulan的就是他说是马来人给机会非马来人住在这而现在非马来人要反咬马来人一口。。。

过后，在前几天我家进了贼。先先是以为不见了一个烂鬼手机和一个烂鬼手表。但后来发现原来不见了几百块还有我妈妈辛苦收集的钱币（那些独立前那种）。

这几天我在想，为什么他们要进我家，毕竟我家只是廉价屋而已叻。。。这件事搞到我这几天都怪怪的。事情一件又一件接着来。。。这个还没搞定，另外一个又来了。

无论如何，至少我父母亲都没事。这才是最重要的。也许，主要我在这件事上学习一些东西也说不定。

from : 认命的小强