walk bravely without any fear

sometimes our life is juz like playing wit us, the game was juz basically unfair and it hav major control of you. ok now u hav 2 choices, either u accept ur fate by making urself falls even deeper or u juz pick up the challenge and strive urself a victorious trophy.

our life is full of choices, is either u make the right 1 or d wrong 1. ther is not a third option. without any doubt, sometimes ther is no right or wrong choices given, u choose either of it will make ur path a rough 1. but as a human, we shouldn't been giving up so easily........our faith is affected by our thought. when think negatively when encounter a problem, u will b definitely been kick-ass or having a lot more hell of trouble. on the other side, thinking positively at least let u make a much appropriate decision in a totally chaos situation.

and juz another tiny little thing, 'you will never walk alone'. i copy tis slogan from a football club la actually. u will nvr hav to face any problem alone, rmb u still hav frens and family's member or even AKPK (haha juz kidding la)........

a problem will still remain a problem as long as u think u cant fix it.........so, be brave and walk down the path u hav chosen.

Peace out.......

微不足道

finally.......i figure it out liao....wahahahaha

i quite odd 2 hav an chinese title with an english passage.....im kinda sad and happy in the same time. i found somthing 2 support my theory. i cant figure any suitable english phrase 4 that.....so i use chinese instead.

2day go yamcha with jessie and mei sin....1st i thought go gossip-gosip with them de coz really long time i din c dao jessie dy. 2day dono y? i met many of my old frens. 1st i met kwei loong, a fren i din wana 2 met actually, blek...he still asking me y i don wan 2 add him in facebook :P. then i met wei lun and chee onn, haha is juz really long time din met chee onn, is kinda like yesterday i ply basketball with him.

haha...the conversation suddenly bcome a wat i called 'chee onn's romance sharing time'. that guy share about his love life la actually. that guy really 痴情de lo, say real la, i don think he is that type of guy b4 tis, but now i really wana say wao......that guy really sibe 伟大. cant mention the leading girl actor's name....all i can say is the guy now still help her swifting her stuff, teach her how 2 drive, try 2 save his relationship 2 months that long after the breakup( the relationship juz maintain for 4 months onli). yet his feeling to her is so strong. even now he is still paying for her broadband, really fuck his life.

ther is a lot more detail i din mention but trust me, i would b sad to heard and i would think i can do it anyway. his sharing is like giving me a big slap to myself.........suddenly felt im juz nothing compare to his. i guess i get it now.....the answer i needed. refer to wat chee onn said that don put in real feeling and u will get hurt. haha, thats so damn true.

wahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha......................abit siao now again............

又来emo咯。。。

哈哈，昨晚不是睡得很好，因为想了太多东西。。。我这个人就是酱，不能睡就想多多,真的是有够力犯贱。。。最后，弄到自己累累的都不懂为了什么？

昨天想的东西因该是破完我之前的记录。我因该谁不到半个小时把。我可以从家人想到人生目标，然后又到童年，然后又想到电脑。。。。真够力无聊。

好的，家人啊。。。。我觉得我妈真的受罪咯，这5-6年一直照顾那两位老古董。虽然那两位老古董从来没看得起我妈，因为我妈的家庭不富有（白鸽眼）。她任劳任怨，默默的付出，从来没有一句怨言。果然，妈妈真的是很伟大。。。

这又让我联想起到其他的事，人生目标。还记得那天有个朋友在我家‘算’了我一句“你几时找个人来帮下你妈”，我听到stun了一下，我没答他就走了。这一方面我是真的很无助的咯，人又不是长到很好看，又不会幽默，做人有没有什么情趣，每天都是‘傻刚刚’过日子的。还有我是独生子，我以后的责任会很大。还记得我一个好朋友跟我说过，他说我不是他，他可以不用对父母有太大的负担因为他说他还有弟妹，但我且没有，然后还叫我‘拾生’。想到这一点就令我想起我不想再看到我妈妈的二号，一天到晚为了照顾老人家而搞到‘整身蚁’。所以叻我还是不要打人家女儿的主意比较好。所以说，要找一个她，还是算了吧！！！

然后，我又会想到我的童年。我的童年没什么特别好的回忆，不过也没有什么不好的事发生啦。只是想起小的时候每天生病，我都不懂花了父母多少血汗钱。突然想起儿时的卡通片《transformer》，很想再看会不懂还有机会吗？

之后就想到我的电脑，它在我开始放假没几天就了。这次真的又要大出血了。。。。

过后我在想什么我也忘了，然后就迷迷糊糊的睡了大概半个小时就给闹钟吵醒了。因为那天要早起，要去做passport。去到那边也是‘傻刚刚’酱，哪一个counter叫我也分不清楚，还个人家shoot了几下。。。

把东西都写完啦，希望今晚能有一觉好睡啦。。。。。

from : 傻刚刚的蟑螂

another randomzzz....

haha....recently juz too much things clogging my head again.....2day i witness myself my mother's fatigue look again!!!! tis few days, she is completely restless taking care of my grandma. im trying my best on helping her on the housework part(except cooking la of course, im a complete idiot when comes to cooking). And yet she still feel tired and 2day i nid to hold her to get a chair in a shopping center in order for her 2 get some rest......geeezz.....i don like tis scene at all, it kinda make me hate those 2 old folks. ya i noe wat u all will thk, the 2 folks still my grandparents and i notice that. 2day i confess to my mum that i hate those 2 old folks very much, my mum answer me she knew it all along but she get things wrong on the reason i hate them. my mum thought that i hate them is bcoz they din treat me well when i was a child, thats true la but is juz not enough 4 me 2 hate them. i told my mum that they making my mum miserable is the reason y i hate them so damn much. is been 5 yrs i thk since my mum having the disease that suppose to forbidden her from doing any stressful. instead, she been taking care of that 2 old junks......making her health a day worser than another.....i will hav the ' wana cry tendency' again when everytime i thought abt tis matter. everytime i complain to my father that tis job is just too much 4 my mum.....my mum will always interrupt our conversation and say 'it's ok, im fine and i still can manage to do it.' the scene i witness 2day i thk i will keep happen again and again, juz like deja vu. sometimes i juz hope that...................................and all will b over.

all i can do is help her as much as i could.........haiz, my father is not in a good shape too. he hurts his back when he try to carry my grandma into the car. now he is been taking diff kind of pain-killer, seem like none of it is working well..........FML

from : cockroach that witnessing that cruel of reality

i nearly.....

as u all noe, im not the person that cries a lot....

well 2day i nearly drop my tears out.....it happen when i saw my mother suddenly hav no strength to walk and thx god that ther is a bar bside the lane that she can hold on.

dono y, at that moment i felt like my heart was stab by a knife or somthing bad. my mother tiredness was due to a whole of tough job which is taking care of my grandma......taking care of a old folk can b really exhausted, i experience myself for taking care my grandma for juz an couple of hour. sometime really felt i wana salute to my mum....that she can take care of her for a whole day.

i suddenly felt that i wana learn cooking so that i can help out my mum and if it is ok, driving too..... coz things get real bitchy recently.....haiz.....the 2 persons that i care most was sick. that makes a sick person taking care of a sick person that doesnt understand the meaning of the word 'appreciation'.

last, hope those 2 old folks don bark at each other and don try to kill each other and also don coz a lot of trouble to us......i seen enough, i will crack soon.....