happy at last

i noe my title is kinda stupid. but who care anyway. last sunday i attended my good fren's wedding dinner, im very happy my fren found a nice guy and gone married. but sometimes it doesnt feel good when ur fren is getting married and u don even hav a gf before, thats kinda sucks.

ok, back to the title. as usual im attending the wedding dinner with my secondary school frens. the whole nite is all abt cam whore. although i not a person who prefers cam whore, but actually i did enjoy cam whoring with them. im enjoying the process is not bcoz i had chance to take pictre with so many leng lui but actually i realise that i laugh for that hard for so damn long since i bak to uni. is like im not really laughing for 2 or 3 months. now i baru notice im so that not happy when im in university. nthg worth laughing abt......fml

anyway, thats a great nite, i enjoy myself, i bet others enjoy themselves too. so here is a photo of us gathered that day......i crossing fingers that the bf of them don come and whack me......haha

feeling bad.....

i really dono wher to start, but anyway, is been a though week, i had 3 test, 1 fyp presentaion....although i finished my last test paper, but somehow i din felt any happier. Felt like im totally fuck up this 2 months, ther is not a day i felt happy abt it.....everyday new shits arise.....juz a summary, my phone broke, im broke due to the bastard, i get killer panel, my tayar 'puncit' in campus area, i get sick in the middle of the test week. Im not blaming anything anyway, mayb ther is ppl tht is more unfortunate that me, or mayb tis time im having a happily ever after life, perhaps this kind of problems is like 'kacang' for certain person..........mayb, mayb, mayb.....

But sometimes i will get into a state wher i c everything in a negative way. Is hard to explain......when im at that state, i tend to get pissed easily, i like to throw things around, slamming doors that i wont usually do(trust me im still doing it now)......it somehow thats another face of myself, the anger part of my self.

Life certainly is not fair. nthg is fair. ther r rich ppl and certainly thr is poor ppl to prove the existance of the rich ppl. Some r getting bad luck all his life but some can happy go lucky on his whole life. Ther is juz too many unexplainable fairness in this world and ya is kinda fuck up.......i hate it.

i dono y im typing tis anyway.....tis is wat i felt.....anyway im still fucking sick now, hope i can well soon.....haiz, life sucks.....

psm.....

After two day of sleepless nite, i finished up my psm seminar paper but sadly the whole was a mess and i still had to include many things inside it. And i juz know that my panel is a killer, my co-supervisor expression is damn weird when he heard the name of my panel.........FML.

The reason im writing blog and not doing my seminar paper now is because im kinda sick.......i cant even c the keyboard properly. The best part is that i need to submit the paper on tis friday and thats the final due date. The funniest of all is.......i basically have 3 test and a psm presentation on next week.......felt like som1 pls pinch me，am i dreaming, damn!!!! Hopefully my dizziness will felt better 2mrw and i can continue my work..........seriously need help but the person who can help me is none other than myself.

So, all i can do now is 'finger-crossed' because that the only thing i can do in the moment.........hopefully i can have some 'kicks' to complete my paper.

Peace out and may peace be with each and everyone of u.......

Updates.......

There had been alot of shits happening......like usual. It kinda makes me feels like life is juz all abt shits......

Rcently, or can i say tis few days, i been using 200 to 300 juz to settle the rental for last month and tis month.....fml. I some how get frustrated, due to unmature thinking of a diploma student living at my house. The story starts when my housemate which is a engineer suddenly gets a offer to b a lecturer at curtin university in sarawak. Of course, he 3x7=21decided to go ther, after all sarawak is his hometown ma. So, after his departure, things started to get worse on the matter of 'rental

fees'.

Then, another shit arise the surface. My another housemate's wife is getting transfer here to batu pahat. At 1st, it seems to be a good thing not until they get to noe that the place she been transfer to is far far away frm parit raja which called tongkak pecah(is kinda kampung area la). So, my housemate needed to move out since his wife is teaching so far away frm where we live now. He promise me that he will definitely, paying the rental till end of tis january means after then sem ended. (kinda relief)

Next, i really had to thank God for tis. Since they r moving out and i cant afford the rental anymore, so i had to move out after tis semester. But believe it or not, i found a house to stay after the day the decision was made. Sounds so unbelievable, at 1st i thought will be a hard time to find a house to rent since that was my last semester. Really grateful for that.

Now then, the best part. The diploma student i mention earlier, he came bak to starts his new and final semester, we told him our decision and hope he will find a house to move. But sadly that guy din even try to find, he juz say he will stay here after we move out. Due to our generosity, we felt guilt lo, then my housemate kinda found a new housemate to stay with us. The original plan is like tis, we will inform the owner of tis house that we will not b renting it after january and we planned to use up the 2 months deposit means at least we can reduce our burden of the rental fees.

And somehow tis guy i will call it '程咬金‘suddenly say he don wan to move out spoil everything. Now i basically need to pay double of the rent i usually paid......FML. If he some how move out, evey1 would b happy........i kinda lost the money i planned for cny for a new shoes, jeans or some new clothes. Now, guess i had to wear the same old shoes, same old jeans and same old clothes thx to that guy. I had a little bit of hating him now.......i dono y, i really gets emotional easily especially when im in pressure. But think frm another perspective, the guy is too young dono wat he is thinking, i probably will think the same way if i was at his age. So, basically i shld b mad but im mad........somehow, somewher,some i dono wat la

Trust me, im not having much money left. Im trying to spend less everyday starting frm 2day for the sake of not having to 'eat grass'. At least today i think i manage to use juz rm10 for eating. Thats a good start at least.

Haiz, nthg to blame la........if the shit is meant to urs, then it will come to u eventually. Believe or not, juz now im having webcam chat with my best fren, although we din chat much, but at least i felt better in the process........So, Father above, if u hear me, u noe my needs, so pls drop some money frm the sky to let me spend........haha juz kidding.

So, gd nite, and here is another negative statement i made at my blog again........